Gloomy Skies Forebode Darkness

Literally darkness. I did not want to wake up for my 8AM class today at all because it was so dark outside. It felt like night time still. It still feels like night, as if morning is never coming. This type of weather makes me yearn for sleep-ins, hot tea, and cozy blankets. Instead I get class at the earliest possible time and no thermos to put any hot drinks in. *sadface*

Anyhow! I do apologize for not posting for such a long time. I've totally broken my resolution apart. Torn it down and stomped on it. I will endeavor to keep more on track from now on. As for the rest of my resolutions... They are going very meh. I haven't really lost weight, but haven't gained it either. I find it hard to eat right when I have to live on dorm food. The only vegetables they have are salads, which I don't really like. It's a shame because I love vegetables, but I'm used to having them cooked. Eating less is hard too when I'm always hungry. It seems as if I need to eat more to be full with dining hall food. It makes me wish that I could live in an apartment and cook for myself. But I have been exercising, so that's the upside. I took a hoola-hoop conditioning class with Karillith the other day. It was interesting, not as fun as I thought it would be, but definitely an okay work out.

I hope to be back with better news in the next post. I have gotten over my slump and am now motivated! Like, 75% motivated. Clearly still not all there yet. Ah well, clearly, my journey might have started with a single step, but keeping myself from stopping is just as hard, if not harder, then that single step.

Unicorns Are Fabulous, But I Haven't Seen Them Today.

Today was definitely a pretty good day. I say 'pretty good' because it wasn't all unicorns and rainbows, but I was quite happy throughout most of it. There was a period of time today where I felt super meh about doing work, but I got over it and did finish some homework. Unfortunately, my textbooks just arrived today, so I'm a bit behind. Luckily, I have nothing to do at all this weekend, so I can spend all of it studying and reading. Forever alone, that's me!

The highlight of my day was definitely a Zumba class that my friend, actually my roommate too, insisted I go to with her. Our third roommate, Karillith, was also dragged along. The session was very energizing, despite my lack of rhythm and coordination. It got my heart rate up and my blood pumping, so it was good for me in a different way from yoga. Karillith is considering signing up for Zumba classes this quarter, so I'm super excited! Considering this is the girl who insisted that she did not want to do any exercise with the point of actually exercising, the fact that she might take Zumba is thrilling. If she does take Zumba, I will definitely be taking it with her. Might have to not take yoga though... have to calculate my schedule.

I think that's all for today. I am super glad I haven't felt too poorly this quarter so far. I hope everyone else has been having an equally good year so far! (Even though it's much too early to judge... *knocksonwood*).

Bye for today!

I Suck At Resolutions Apparently

I said I would blog every day... but I've been super busy. That's my excuse. Which is a totally legit excuse, considering I just started winter quarter at UCLA and I've been super busy trying to get all my classes and books. But I had time today! My head is pounding and I desperately want to go to bed, but I'm not going to skip any more days.

Today was a mixed day.

It was pretty good in terms of my general mood. I definitely felt pretty productive today. Read the readings that I could (considering the majority haven't arrived yet... curse you, Amazon!) and even did 2 hours of experiment credits for my Introduction to Psychology class. That isn't to say I couldn't have been more productive, but considering how lethargic and depressed I was last quarter, I can definitely be happy (and can I say proud?) of this improvement.

On the flip side, I definitely felt like I ate a lot today, which is not good at all. I am ashamed to say I felt super hungry at dinner and made the conscious decision to eat extra and just throw it all up in the bathroom later. I felt really guilty, yet I still did it. What does that say about me? Still saying I'm not anorexic. I really need to make a way of keeping to my resolution though. Eat less (stop throwing up) and exercise more! Haven't exercised at all...

That's it for all though. Good night!!!

New Year's Resolutions (5 Days Late :P)

So I decided to start a blog. I would continue with my LiveJournal, but LiveJournal has been deteriorating and I figured I could post in both places with a few edits here and there. The decision to start a blog (at post every day), was partially prompted by my friend's decision to vlog every day for 365 days. Since I have no interest in talking and putting myself on video for the world to see, I figured a blog would be a good way of getting myself to let go of my feelings and stop bottling them up. I cannot promise this blog will be a fun or lighthearted one, but it won't always be depressive. These are simply my feelings, presented in word form. Sometimes I'm happy, sometimes I'm sad. I definitely have issues, and this is a way for me to write about them.

On to my New Year's Resolutions! So what if they're late? The important thing is I'm getting around to them and I don't give up just because I broke them. I have multiple things I want to change about my life right now. And these will be altered as I feel my way through what is best for me. Another reason for this blog is that I figured sitting down at the end of each day and spending some time to really contemplate what I did right and wrong will help keep me on track.

Resolutions:
1) Get a 4.0 (Aiming for the moon so even if I miss I'll be among the stars.)
2) Eat/be healthier (which will hopefully lead to weight loss)
       a) Drink 8 glasses of water a day minimum
       b) exercise (yoga)
       c) eat a salad meal a day
       d) cut down on junk food
       e) drink less (reduce to none) soda
3) Be less stressed/tired
       a) Don't procrastinate! Make schedules.
       b) Sleep at 11pm every night

And that's all for today!

Here's to a happy and healthy year!